Rafting on the SNAKE!! farewell grandma

This past weekend has been interesting. My ward peeps and I went river rafting in Jackson Wyoming. It was so much fun. I got to get to know the people in my ward a little better. I also got to try out my new camping pad and down sleeping bag. it was so warm. the second night that we were there it got pretty chilly. the first night was just right. well except for those who slept under the stars they got alot of bug bites!. those dang blood suckers. they are kind of annoying.

I left early they had 2 river runs a day and i left after the first river run on saturday. The peeps in my boat saturday were really interesting. we had alot of different personalities on the boat. the funniest part was when the push the loud girl out of the boat that was squirting everyone. she totally didn't expect it. i think she got pushed out twice. I heard the second run she went down that day she was squirting everyone and her boat threw her out and wouldn't let her back in. that's sad but funny at the same time!lol

I left early on saturday because my Grandma Bennion has been really sick. She was diagnosed with breast cancer about 2 years ago. It spread to her lymph nodes and they told her the cancer would re-occur in about 2 years if she went untreated. She decided not to do chemo or radiation. about 2 weeks ago she was diagnosed with Liver cancer. her breast cancer had spead down there.

I was grateful to be able to go see her and take care of her this past weekend. although it was kind of hard to see her so weak and unable to take care of herself. She just passed away yesterday afternoon. I kind of feel weird because i'm sad she's gone but i haven't really cried and maybe it just hasn't set in yet.

I feel like it was a blessing for her to pass aways because after she was diagnosed with the liver cancer they told her she had 2 months. she pretty much gave up all will to live at that point and went down hill fast. i mean it's only been 2 weeks since the diagnoses. i thought that was an interesting concept. We were talking with hospice nurses and they had mentioned the power of the brain on dying. The nurse was telling us that if people have any unresolved issues alot of people hold on until things are resolved and then they pass when it's resolved. I think once grandma decided she was done that why she went downhill so fast.

When i saw her last weekend she was miserable. she wasn't in alot of pain but she would take pain meds and sleep forever because the liver helps process some of those drugs so her chemisty was all out of wack. She would wake up and her shoulders would just ache. She was super skinny just bones and skin. I so grateful that she's in a better place now and able to reunite with the love of her life :0)